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Yep well i've been spending time with my life partner Christen...nah just kidding she's just the kid i talked about who is my friend since gajillion years ago. Anyways i got two bruises and a messy room..how did that happen you ask? that's classiffied X-rated information there XD J/K. We went to this show thing and some kid fell onto me and then i fell at a baseball game XD such glorious days those were. It was fun now i'm back home and she's chillin' like a villain at my hizhouse for a while. yeah just like the good old times when Barbie was still our friend. *laughs joyfully* yep yep good times those good times.And those good times just keep rolling, i'm talking to friends from school now and some old friends i knew way back when. these next few weeks are gunna be interesting to say the least.
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May. 21st, 2007 @ 06:47 pm
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I NEEEDD SLEEEEP. my house is too loud though :(
The dork is really sick, i was going to call him but you know i don't want to bother him >.>
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May 18, 2007
Well it’s almost towards the end of school now, only three more days to go. Unfortunately it’s also making me depressed too. Mark is at Ozy’s house again…I could’ve hung out with them if ozy’s mom liked me… to tell you the truth I don’t think she likes any girl who hangs around her son…then again maybe she only doesn’t like me. Ah well you know what I don’t give a rat’s ass what anyone thinks of me. I’ve made soo many friends this year and unfortunately I’ve made enemies too. And get this some of the people who hate me don’t even know or talk to me, I mean I know I’m a little strange but not enough that you’d hate me for it. It’s not like I’m annoying…hell I barely talk!
And those freakin’ cowards don’t even have the balls to say anything to my face. A friend’s sister even tried to get her parents to hate me by making up lies saying that I went psycho on her best friend! What kind of BS is that!
I’m just a little known around school and people already hate me, imagine if I was one of those preppy drama queens! Good god I would kill myself. Thank god those preps live for drama or else there would be a lot of suicidal and homicidal people walking around the school. it’s crazy how that crap follows you through out high school, you think people would have grown up and gotten over that kind of crap. Even the adults do it! Yes their guilty of doing that to other people as well.
But that’s only one problem in this topic. People are leaving! And I just don’t mean graduating either their all moving to other school’s or moving on with their own lives. I know all this is part of life but all at once! Come on give me a break! It’s bad enough Mark is moving, that’s worst thing right their, but it also give way to another problem. I’m really going to miss having those people around, they’re what made school worth going to, now there’s really no sense In going. I know the whole “well school will give you a better job and help you function in the real world.” bull!, half the stuff they teach you is stuff you’ll never use in the real world or doesn’t even fit into what you want to do in life. College makes that happen and most of us, even A students, aren’t lucky enough to get in without a scholarship or rich parents. And even if they do make through college most of them don’t even get into the fields they went to school for. As you can see I’m very passionate about getting my point across and trust me I’ve looked at everything from every angle and every point of view. Now the part that makes me really, really, really depressed, Mark is spending time with his friend and hey I don’t really have a problem with it, I don’t, but I mean I only spent time alone with him one day this week. Now it’s not such a big deal or anything it’s just I’m not going to see much of him over the summer either and when school starts up again…well just forget it. I won’t see him at all then. You’d think he’d want to spend a lot of time with me before the summer comes and he has to spend his time out in Tampa. He says he loves me like 20 times everyday now. Half the time I think he’s just blowing smoke just saying it so I wouldn’t get mad at him when he want’s to do something, and see that leads to another situation. See it’s a shameful thing to say but maybe he’s done something that he shouldn’t have and feels guilty about it, like cheating or something else I told he shouldn’t do. Or just maybe this is his way of dealing with him moving all together making sure I know he loves me and wouldn’t do anything to put our relationship in danger. I know I’m over thinking this all together but that’s how my brain works sadly. Well I’m sleepy so I’ll shut up now, I know complaining about my problems doesn’t matter much to anyone, but this is just an outlet to release problems that are stuck in my head and won’t let me sleep.
OYASUMI NASAI!!!!!
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I got my project done and ready to go! i thought that project was going to kill me. i got it binded and what not the best i could considering the amount of money my parents budgeted me too, but it beats failing! so hopefully i get a decent grade. If not oh well i'm already down a half a credit, unless it gets fixed over the summer, and if not well i'll be a....um..sphonior?..
well anyways this weekend feels like it's dragging, i wish it was like this when i had to write my story, the time would have come in very handy lol ^-^
nothing much has been going on, two of friends want to slap my cousin though. she has been causing a lot of crap. she tried to get Mark to think that i was cheating on him with his best friend, just like she tried to get me to think the he was cheating on me with one of his exes.Not only that she has been talking crap, along with my brother,yes, my brother. but he told me his oppinion straight to my face. so anyways i can't really trust either of them now. it's kinda sad to find out you can't even trust your family.Current Mood:  content |
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I"m in homeroom right now and i'm very hyper, the only thing that sucks about it is that i'm going to crash around sixth period. But i'm very happy because Mark gets to ride the bus with me!! it's only been a few days since he hasn't riden it, but just having him there is the main point.He's my heart and i mean it, i'm very grouchy and careless when he's not around, he's the only one i'll care for without making a sarcastic remark (most of the time). Anyways i was writing something on the bus for circle sharing and then Stephanie reminded me we didn't have it today, it's kind of sad because i wrote another "Happy Poem" XD (refer to my happy poems entry) oh oh i have one dedicated to my Dork and my Sister from another mister from when i missed them.
I feel sad oh yes i do
because i'm not next to you.
if we were i'd have to say,
some fried potatoes would make my day.
But i think we could all agree
that the cartoon lenore would make us laugh til you pee.
YAY again again!!!!
Me: *glares evil like*
.....uh ok maybe not >.>
it's another master peice well the bell is about to ring so ja matte ne!!!!
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Poll #975802
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 2
What do like about school?
View Answers
| The Drama |
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| Friends |
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| Teacher |
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| Just think school is a waste of time |
| 0 (0.0%) |
| Classes |
| 0 (0.0%) |
| Lunchtime |
| 0 (0.0%) |
| Other |
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YAY GIR....anyway i didn't go to school friday, obviously, and for those of you who don't pay attention.....well you know now XD. but yeah my firday was a lonely one for most off the day, i got a lot of work done, but i didn't see Mark so there was a hole in me. i know it's sounds pathetic, but i really did and do miss him, and it makes me suffer through the day XD. God that's a sad thing to say >.<. anyway i almost didn't make it home tonight i'm glad i did because i couldn't miss another day of school, but my brother saved me with his P.O.S.( you can try and figure out what that means) car and YAY i'll be back to weirden up your day tomorrow ^-^. as you can probably tell i'm really hyper, yet really tired, and also have a stiff neck from sleeping on too soft of a bed. i was at my best friend's house and she has a super soft bed with super soft pillows, which you think might let you sleep fine and comfortable, but no for me just a stiff neck and some weird ass dreams that i don't quite remember. i got my story stuf edited by my friend and she says it's coming out alright so i'm happy i only have a few pages to go i've been trying my hardest to gwt it finished but i always get side tracked or i have to entertain people and keep up relationships with friends. anyway the rest of my weekend we just hung out and veged all day today and hung out in the mall most of saturday, with no cash. so yep not very interesting but i got away from home.Yes i need to work out more now since i did non of that this weekend, but i got my face cleared up and looking some what normal
Apr. 29th, 2007 @ 07:10 pm
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I don't have a clever Headline for this entry cause i'm a saaaaddd Panda. i have 9 1/2 pages done with 12 more to go. I should be working on it now but then my grade would go lower if i don't post anything here and I don't feel like going to summer school, even though i might anyways...but that's a long story i don't feel like going into. The project is taking me so long to finish up, i wouldn't have gotten it done even in class,my creativity gets blocked in the class room and i can't write anything anyways. It's the same way in Art class..speaking of i need to print out that picture >.>. anyways i can't wait to get back to school monday, even though having to go to classes sucks, i still get to see my friends.It's always boring at my house with nothing to do even though there's a lot to do. But everything gets boring after a while and you lose interest.Anyway i should be able to get the project done tonight, i'll just have to write random crap for the last few pages since i'm pressed for time. i'm not going to get a good grade on it anyway because i won't be able to get the publush work stuff done.My parents get busy and we usually have to spend most of the money the house and what not. If i had my first ten pages it would've only took me a couple of days to back up my computer and get it done, but whatever my comp. crashed and there's nothing i could do about it except work my pale butt off and lose sleep so i don't fail AGAIN.Before i started creative writing i was like one the best writers out of my friends and the message board I was on, but now there hasn't been anything to spur inspiration it's like there's creativity repellent surrounding me or something, even my drawing has been suffering i haven't turned out a comic in months!
it's kind of depressing to think about.Well i have to go take a dip in cold water to clean the pool so after i thaw i'll see you guys tomorrow.
Apr. 22nd, 2007 @ 08:21 am
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Is gunna kill me thanks to technical difficulties, I only have five pages written.Through being tired and taking care of everyone else who needs I haven't been able to reallt work on it....that and the internet is my drug >.<. Well at least I admit it i'm one step closer to recovery.I might not be able to get the publishing done eithier due to financial troubles (not having a job and parents have to pay bills) so needless to say Mrs. Kennedy your probably gunna have to fail me again,even though I tried my damndest.Aww well life sucks and then you die, then death is eternal decay....sorry i had to add to that cliche' it sounded open ended. ANYWAYS this is all i got today see yas.
Apr. 18th, 2007 @ 06:56 pm
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My thighs are huge, and they're not scared of you.
With just one hit and you'll say i quit
so fear the thighs of thunder,
and you'll live a happy life of wonder.
* Audience applaudes*
My head feels heavy and numb.
It feels like it might get squashed like a plum.
But at least i don't feel like a bum,
While i sit on my couch and hum.
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So lonely and quiet,
I think i might play the song called riot.
While i sit on the couch and pretend to be a pirate.
Such delusional days like these,
make me fall to my knees.
But don't take pitty on me please,
because it's always fun playing with the bees.
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Well i hope these bring smiles to your faces, and if it brings anger and confusion then....SORRRRRRYYYY I WAS BORED OK!! ^-^
Thank you for your time
P.s. no i'm not on any drugs,i'm just very sleepy *clears throat*
that is all
Apr. 8th, 2007 @ 09:05 pm
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Well sping break is going ok so far i had my friend over this past weekend for her spring break it was great.One of my boyfriend's friends came over to hang out and go swimmming we went to his for a little while and watched a movie, he cooked for us as well.But my poor friend was getting hit on by him >.<, i protected her though.Well she went home sunday and my boyfriend came over.On Thursday i'll be alone with my grandma for five days, so i might not be in school for a while. My Brother's father died (we have the same mom diff. dads ) and i have to stay home to watch over my grandma and take care of the animals.Hopefully my friend can come this weekend coming up cause i could really use the help ^^6.So if i'm not in school you know why,my grades are going to drop dramatically X.x i'm going to die this year...hello summer school XP.
Apr. 3rd, 2007 @ 09:23 am
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